My Little Family

Three months in this thang...or rather 14 weeks exactly tomorrow , or rather 98 days, however you'd like to look at it. I think I was perfectly fine and could handle being a mommy and wife on maternity leave but LAWD HA'MERCY adding in work. On maternity leave, I think I was more so being mommy than a wife but hey I'm working on that. If your're a mom and a wife, you know the struggle. I wonder if guys struggle with this as much as the ladies. Also, please stop asking us when we're having our next baby. One, it's none of your business, two, it's none of business. Three it's rather annoying.

So let me back track just a little bit:

FIRST day of WORK & FIRST day of DAYCARE

I went back to work the week after Thanksgiving. It was really hard. Terence even thought it was a good idea for him to take off. Not really sure why he needed to take off but he did. I didn't cry when I dropped him off but I def felt some type of way dropping him off. I didn't really get emotional until I parked my car at the school. I called the daycare everyday and they already knew that I was going to call. Some days I even stopped by. Now I hardly call but I still stop by on some days.

Baby's First Christmas

So usually I don't make New Years resolutions, I more so set goals for myself, and I didn't think my husband did either until New Year's Eve rolled around. The clock struck 9:00pm and Terence decided that his New Year's Resolution was going to be to get our baby (3 mos old remember) to sleep in his crib. A little bit of history about this crib he's never slept in it over night. So New Year's Eve was pretty darn rough.We put him down in his crib at 9:00 he woke up with in an hour. Big Daddy Terence thought it would be a good idea to let MY BABY, cry it out. Noticed I put MY BABY capitalized lol. I think New Year's Day I was a little salty towards Terence, I was side eyeing him all day Ask Terence about that. Right now the cry out method is not for me right now. I know some of you will say that I am spoiling him but uuuhhhh raaahhh ummm. Needless to say he cried for an hour off and on with Terence going in to check on him every few minutes. He slept in his crib that night and the next night but on that 3rd day ( I feel like I'm about to preach here... you know how those Baptist preachers get when they start talking about how Jesus rose out of the grave on the third day lol) anyway he was not having it and neither was I. But since then I have tried to let him sleep in his crib last night he slept from about 7:00 pm until 12:00 am which is huge and never woke up or cried. Poor Terence just wants his wife back in the bed alone, HAHAHAHAHA.

The past three months has been the most tiring,( my eye balls hurt is a statement I use FREQUENTLY), exciting, frightening, loving, scary, and any other emotion that you can think of but... this picture makes it all worth it.   

This statement has been something that I have seen over the past couple of years but it never really caught my attention until now. Letting go of the life you planned is really tough because you have to come to grips with the reality the life that is currently happening. It also means that you are ready to accept the life that is ahead of you.  In my head, the life I planned consisted of me POSSIBLY being married and MAYBE having a child. Well, I AM married and I HAVE a child.The learning curve that I went through to get to the place that I am today made me a better person. Let's just say I'm ready for the life that is waiting for me, which is going to be FUN considering I have my best friend/hubby Terence and our little one Tylen to go on this journey with.

Live...Laugh...Love,

Le'Shawn