...Ish Just Got Real

Sept 24,2015 will always be the day that changed my life & Terence's. I kind of knew that it would but it didn't really occur to me until it happened. Now not only am I someone's sister, daughter, granddaughter, niece, friend and wife...but I'm a FREAKING mother!!! I know that scares some of you heck it scares me too some days.  👶🏽 

Child birth pretty much sucks...like EVE I hate you.theres a story going around that my Dr had to fuss at me to push harder or I was going to have to have a CSection....so I pushed harder. 😂😂😂😂 I don't know how that lady on that 19+ Kids & counting show uterus hasn't just fallen out and she just killed over. Like seriously.  A child is the greatest blessing that I didn't know existed. I've already had sleepless nights and shitty diapers that make me gag & I have to use gloves... but I wouldn't change it for the world. 

Out of all the baby showers and congratulations...no one really tells you the truth. They are all smiles & giggles at baby showers. No one tells you that after the baby is born you're still going to be in pain from God knows what. Terence(my hubby) was literally my nurse for weeks & didn't complain one bit. Love him so much more now than prebaby, didn't know that was possible either. No one tells you that you will grow an 2 extra arms...No one tells you that PPD is real...I had the baby blues( where you think about your prebaby life) & wish to have that life again. No one tells you that there's what I call Mom wars going on..."Are you breast feeding, I did, Do you let your baby sleep with you, you're spoiling him." Heck I don't even remember half of the crazy stuff I've heard. Sometimes the advice giving is overwhelming people...but whateves.  😫🙊 

I've learned in the last couple of weeks of being Tylen's mommy, each new chapter in my life(or your life) requires a different me (you). Since Tylen the me that has developed & is still developing had to learn to put my own wants aside to care for my little one who can't do one thing for himself. I've learned to keep my cool in situations that I would have normally cursed someone out...still working on this part if I'm being honest with myself. I'm still learning that sometimes it is okay to ask for help. So while my journey to motherhood takes me to a new me I'm going to sit back & enjoy the ride, late night feeding/diaper changes w/gloves & all. What new chapter are you heading into that requires a different you? It doesn't have to be as life changing as having a baby but you know when..."Ish gets real"... It's time to change up somethings. 

Live, Laugh, Love,

Le'Shawn 

Let me go to sleep while everyone else in the house is knocked out!!!!